I have been so self-seeking for such a long time. I was good at rehearsing it every day until I mastered its art. I covered up my face with a mask, a concealment that lasted long, a veneer which altered versions of myself. Until I got tired. I ran out of fuel. I tried to keep moving but I was actually stagnant. I kept pushing hard yet I didn’t achieve stability. I was so confident that I would never fall short. I trusted myself and declared independence, thinking I could do everything on my own strength. I sowed tripwires inside, like a time bomb, I could explode anytime.
Until finally, I felt weakness invading my being. As it turned out, I was powerless, yet have not seen it. It was a knock-down blow, my emotions got mixed up and created a humungous monster in me. I was caught off-guard. “What shall I do? Who shall I call? Where will I run to from this very point of brokenness?”
I was so desperate. I was in need. I was broken hearted. Little did I know that my healing was about to begin. I realized I can’t keep things up anymore; that I wasn’t really good enough. All the walls I’ve built seemed to be like glass on the outside – fragile.
My soul decided to let them tumble down on the ground in the sound of praise! The revelation of my weakness is God’s call to me that, lately, my life has not been focused on Him anymore but more on myself. How did I make things get better? Three words: I SURRENDERED ALL.
I thought I have done this a thousand times. I thought I was giving it all to God until I noticed I was still holding on something for myself and not letting go.
This time, I want it real. I want my all poured out at the feet of Jesus. Just like the rest, I was merely a clay pot – common stuff, flawed, fragile, yet His grace has been sufficient and His power has been perfect in my weakness . The moment I surrendered everything, I tasted real freedom; I had an outburst of praise! These circumstances redirected me in my life’s purpose, which is to love my God lavishly and to glorify Him extravagantly.
What hinders you in experiencing a powerful breakthrough in worship?
Perhaps, you find it hard to soak in Him in greater depths and soar with Him in greater heights.
Don’t you think it’s now time to start surrendering your ALL to Jesus?
13 “If you would surrender your heart,
And stretch out your hands toward Him;
14 If iniquity were in your hand, and you put it far away,
And would not let wickedness dwell in your tents;
15 Then surely you could lift up your face without spot;
Yes, you could be steadfast, and not fear;
Because you would forget your misery,
And remember it as waters that have passed away,
17 And your life would be brighter than noonday.
Though you were dark, you would be like the morning.
18 And you would be secure, because there is hope;
Yes, you would dig around you, and take your rest in safety.
19 You would also lie down, and no one would make you afraid;
Yes, many would court your favor.
Job 11:13-15 (NKJV)
Surrendering all,
Chanelle
